Monday, 18 November 2013

ANGER: The Transformer in Human

"Anger : The transformer in Human"
Watercolor on Paper
2009


Here's a painting I did way back in 2009. My college admission was postponed due to sudden notification by the Delhi Govt. regarding to some reserved seat issues in Colleges. I had been waiting for my admission like almost 4 months when I did this painting. It is a small water colour painting done on Fabriano paper. When i looked back and reflect my experience as being not able to get in college after all that I've gone through ( I've been doing my technical entrance exam coaching for 1 year earlier and all of a sudden after the technical exam I've decided to pursue a course that's not so much appreciated from where i belong- Even my families weren't sure if my choice was a very good thing : : luckily I got a good support as they all know I was very much interested in Art.) - this painting reveals some of my experience and emotions I felt when I was in a situation I don't know where it gonna take me. I keep on asking the college authorities but I do not get back any answers that helps to keep my hope high-on. It was my first time in Delhi and had to take Auto everyday even just to enquire and the auto-wallas would keep on trying to get the very best of freshers who don't know Delhi and Hindi well and my look ( Its all with the North-Easterners) make them think I'm a foreigner and had to bargain everytime I'm getting an Auto.( as if its easier to cheat foreigners)

My bank accounts' depleting...my hope's fading( well at least i still have hope through Jesus Christ).....my patience's thrown out and ANGER-towards my own - kinda develop within myself. I do not realise that I had anger in me (sounds strange? But its true) but there was something inside that's not peaceful. I was just then having an emotional sickness that i don't understand and my anger was piled up within myself that was eager to explode. I do not mean I got so angry and start all sorts of nonsense that angry people do :)...No, the thing inside was force to explode (as in my case) as an artistic expression that forced me to paint and think to that situation.

That was then when I did my painting......I made quick and vigorous strokes of paint laid wet-on-wet splashing on the paper. I then drop drops of alcohol for the #back-run effect : : the area where its been highlighted. The fiery red color of paint gets transform into a hybrid-like creature with sharp claws and teeth and without an eye. This is to show that we are mostly fierceful when we get angry and even the softest and most innocent of all people can get very nasty and fiery. I've seen people fighting and quarreling when they get angry....they fear and care nothing, as if blind, not able to see or care the consequences of  letting off their anger, ( Thinrimna in khua a hmuh tir lo)  it made them fools, as depicted in the painting as a Pig's head.....at the same time associated with harsh words that cuts other as if bitten with sharp teeth. I feel this painting got the things i had in my mind about anger, and how it can transform humans with anger exploding themselves.

After all, the best colour to depict Anger would be RED, don't you think so too??????

So,after painting, all my emotional-anger( I don't mean I'm angry- can't quite explain) turns into peace and aesthetic experience associated with joy.......... This is why I Love Art, i have written earlier about enjoying creating Art even during sadness or sickness. The same goes here when I had something within me that's troubling me- that too, with which I'm not quite clear of and making/engrossing with artwork and relieved me of what's been dumped inside me like huge garbage. :) :) :) I begin to connect to the much talked topic- Art as a #Catharsis as I reflect back on this painting.

It is very important to let go off our anger so that we can feel peace but not getting angry to hurt or fight others.
“Be angry, and do not sin, do not let the sun go down on your wrath"
                                                                                                             - Ephesians 4:26


"A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control"
                                                                                                            - Proverbs 29:11
"Do not hasten in your spirit to be angry, For anger rests in the bosom of fools."
                                                                                                           -Ecclesiastes 7:9